.::.: Screwed Up Life :.::.

Short and Sweet

2008-04-21T05:53:00.000-07:00

I don't have a whole folder of pictures from TK like mich, and i can't write a great post like amirul, but what i can do, is say that, i miss TK. Simple as that. I miss having fun joking in class, i miss fooling around with the gang, i miss the many bridge sessions we had during recess, and most of all, i miss the times we had together.

I tried to get the feeling back from my new school, new class, new environment, but no matter what, it can never replace those feeling i had in TK.

Sorry guys, i've been rather moody lately, so ya, sorry.

Whoo

2008-03-23T23:47:00.000-07:00

You Are a Centaur

In general, you are a very cautious and reserved person.

However, you are also warm hearted, and you enjoy helping others in practical ways.

You are a great teacher, and you are really good at helping people get their lives in order.

You are very intuitive, and you go with your gut. You make good decisions easily.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Lolz. More below. XD. I went to SongYang's blog and found this. Hehe.

Your EQ is 140 You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.
You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.

While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.
But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

What Ng Wei Xuan Means You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are incredibly sexy and sensual. You have a naughty vibe that no one can ignore.
You have an unquenchable desire. And you are unrestrained in your passions.
You have a tendency to be unfaithful. Whether you fight it or give in to it is up to you.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

Emotional

2008-03-22T09:04:00.000-07:00

Is this.. really.. emotional? Irrationally sad?

I wonder.

Alright! I'm blogging!

2008-03-05T04:53:00.000-08:00

Yo! Lol i'm finally back due to popular demand. XD. Ok, for today, i shall let the pictures talk. ^^. *Warning: Unglam CamHoring pictures below.*

Tada~~~

My sis turning me into a camho~~

Cool warning signBefore.

After

This is FAKE~~~

Random shots here on out~

Jumbo Chess~!

WEE~~Wii!!

Retard~~~

Emo~ness~~

YES~~BBALL~~

Retard~~Again~~

And again~

And again~....

And again~~~~~!!!

Ok this is the last~I swear~XD

My messy room~~

Surprisingly Clean Toilet~~~

Tada~~~!!

Emoing yet again~

Crap i thought that was the last~!XD!

The END!!~~~

P.S: The jacket i was wearing was what my DAD was gonna wear. Lol.

Thanks all.

2008-02-16T02:26:00.001-08:00

Lol. Read many blogs and found my name on quite a few. Guilt got the better of me and so ya, i'm here making a thank you post for everyone in a pathetic attempt to make myself feel better. Heh. Oh, before i start, the order of the name doesn't matter, because i just randomly think of someone, so don't like start hating me if your name is like at the bottom of the page. ^^.

Thanks to yien, for not giving me a flower on valentine's day. XDD. LOL. Ok jk. I'm still angry so don't think you can get away with it. =S. Anyway, back to the topic. So ya, you retard, going into VJC just for the grand piano and the spiral staircase. Lol. Though seeing as things are going, i guess i can pretty much say you're enjoying yourself inside there. Whatever it is, thanks for being such a great EMO friend that always chose to sit like 5 seats away on the bus. Heh. To be honest, you were probably the most important person to thank for making me what i am today. Yea i know, you probably think you haven't done anything, which is kinda true. XD. But well, let's just say i always tried to be as good as you, if not better. Lol. You better do well in VJC dude, or i'll chop you into pieces and feed it to michelle aw. Lol, damn no link sia me. Heh.

Thanks to mengyee, for tolerating my lameness all this while. Thanks for spending like 2 min to teach me the whole topic of summation. XD. You're such a GREAT teacher. ^^. To be honest, you've been a really great friend up until now. And no, don't think that you're getting rid of me when i really get into TJC. Don't forget that i live like 1 bus stop away from you. Hehe. And you, another EMO friend that used to sit like 10 seats away on the bus. XD. Nevertheless, I will still love you! LOL. Hehe. Though you'll probably get a really nice girlfriend next time. Trust me man, my fortune telling skills never fail. Muahahaha. And i still can't get into pspiso. Grrrrr. Oh, and thanks for editing your blog. Hehe.

Thanks to WEEKANG, my BFF. LOLOLOL. Hehe. Don't worry i love you too, i got pretty much love to share with everyone. ^^. Eh damn, i don't know what to thank you about. XD. Joking. Thanks for being as lame as me during last year's Mother Tongue lessons, pissing the teacher off and all. Thanks for the oh-so-fun jacking sessions during E Maths and A Maths lessons. Though i guess i'm pretty much the second main guy to blame(The main guy is of course~~You.) for your Amaths to get an A2 instead of an A1. Thanks for teaching me all the basketball stuff and sharing with me all your lame gaming occurings. ^^. All in all, thanks for the 4 years of friendship. I really appreciate it. Its kind of sad that we may not be in the same school anymore though. *Sob sob cry cry* XD.

Thanks to yapseng, my retarded joker friend, who probably won't be reading this, so i can pretty much suan him like crazy without risking my head or something like that. Heh. But then again, i'm such a nice guy, why would i do that? ^^. *Turns around and do an evil grin*. So ya, i don't really understand why you went all the way to ACJC, but heck, you probably have your reasons and i will respect them. See, i told you i'm a nice guy. XD. Thanks for being such a great friend. Lol. I promise i won't kachiao you when you're flirting next time. XDDD. Anyway, don't you ever forget me you retard, with all your OWNAGERS and stuff. Lol. ^^.

Thanks to songyang, the concave face. Lol, i love you too, ^^. Thanks for being such a lame friend. Always doing the freaking crazy bids during bridge, e.g. 7 NO TRUMP. LOL. Siao guy. Thanks for being the guy that always kena whack by me and then whack me back. ^^. Thanks for being such a smart dickhead. Lol. Ok la, anyway, good job on getting 10 points for Os, i'm proud of you, in a way. Lol. All the best to you for your two years in MJC. May the power be with you. ^^.

Thanks to Jev, you've been a really great friend, though i don't really understand how we could actually end up as close as this. Lol. But who cares? ^^. Thanks for being such a great listening ear in the past, and hopefully in the future. Hehe. This is probably the 100th time i'm saying this, and also probably the last, in case you find me naggy and all. You're smart dude, trust me. And sorry for the uber belated birthday present. Hehe, i didn't really know what else to choose for you. I won't mind if you don't use it really, just keep it with you as a souveneir or something ya?
So ya, here's wishing you a great time in NgeeAnn poly. All the best dood.

Thanks to mavis, the chio-bu. Lol, whoever is reading this, please don't tell ziheng. Hehe. So ya, you still owe me a card. ^^. Jk. I don't want to kena hantam by ziheng. Lol. Ok la i won't talk too much into your love life, which is uber interesting. XD. So ya, thanks for the jokes and all the lame stuff that you used to share with me. I know you are zhong se qing you, so i don't blame you, ^^. Thanks for being such a great friend and never failing to cheer me up. Thanks for being a listening ear too. (Yea i know i got loads of problems so i need a lot of listening ears too) Don't you ever forget your hong uncle ok. Lol.

Lastly, thanks all who gave me chocalates and sweets on Valentine's Day, i really appreciated it. Thanks.

You know guys, i'll never ever finish if i list out all the people that i need to thank, so i'll just put out the names here and if you really want me to write a paragraph for you, tag and i'll do it. ^^. Hehe. So ya, thanks to ziheng, sophia, mich aw, linda, amirul, bernard, syjia, nich, gary, thongs, clarissa, gladys, daph, xinli, becks, and many many more. I can't really remember now, just know that in short, i want to thank everyone who have played a part in making me what i am today, which is not really a great me, but i'm contented. ^^. Thanks 2A, 4B, TK, and not forgetting the great teachers.

Love you all people. ^^.

Live forever in our memories...

2008-02-14T01:19:00.000-08:00

Our dearest ah meng have left us for paradise last week.

Let us all remember all that he has done for us in our hearts, and let him live forever in our memories...

Goodbye, ah meng.

Valentines?

2008-02-11T03:52:00.000-08:00

Lol. Happy Chinese New Year to all!!! Thanks to your blessings, i'm back in school, alive and kicking. XD.

Valentines' on this thursday. And our school's got this "Angel & Mortal" thingy going on. *Oh just a side note, my class has 17 guys and 5 girls (talk about imba sex ratios yien)* So the event is like every person has got a angel and a mortal. So the angel will like be giving you things and all the thing and mortals are supposed to like stay retarded and all.

So ya, my angel gave me this note and she sounded like damn friendly and all, though i don't know her. XD. Feel so stalked. Lol. Never mind that. I should be grateful someone actually gave me something close to a love note. LOL.

Ok so back to the topic. I don't know what to give to my mortal. XD. Help me out here someone.

OH one more thing, SyJia's angel from my class withdrew from school. So she's like damn sad now. Hees.

I'm pissed alright.

2008-01-31T06:17:00.000-08:00

Hey sorry peepz. Haven't been posting lately. Well, in short, things happened and i can't really say my life has been going well lately.

I'm not gonna go beat around the bush. I'm pissed. On top of that, frustration, being ill and all isn't really helping. With my bro getting on my nerves every now and then. Ok i know i shouldn't say this, but then he is annoying. I mean come on, i'm not exactly a retard man, i can get my own food. Never mind, you guys won't understand anyway.

Well, about my results, i don't know whether to be happy or sad. But i must say, i do regret alot. Ok i know i got 9 points and all, but whats the point if i can't get into a school i want? Ever since i got my results, i've been regretting so much. Not appealing to TJC when i knew i could, not retaking the CL 'O's when i should have.

Then again, i should be happy since my Comb. Hum. got a B3, which is far out of my expectations, i was expecting a b4 or something. But physics was kind of disappointing, i was really confident of the paper, i guess i would've got an A1 if not for my SPA. Haiz.

One more thing that happened, the bloody swelling is back again. F***. (Ok sorry for the vulgarity that would corrupt all your innocent mind. But i really needed to say that.) I'm really really frustrated. And the naggings i get from my parents aren't really helping. I mean, i don't really blame them, but i just need some quiet time alone. Heck. Not like they're gonna read this anyway.

I screwed up today. Went to the doctor and forgot to tell him about the nauseous feeling i'm getting, which was actually the main reason i visited him in the first place. I mean, i really didn't want that to happen man. F*** it. (Sorry again.)

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

Haiz . On a lighter note, naruto and DGM manga is freaking nice. Go read it ppl.

And sorry guys about the badminton thing.

I promised.

2008-01-19T04:28:00.000-08:00

Lol, as promised, i shall blog about the days i've been spending in MJC.

Alright, to start off, orientation was kind of fun. Well not the couple dance at least. XD. Can't really remember the details but i think i enjoyed it. It was all usual stuff, like amazing race and stuff. Anyhow, PHOBOS ROCKS! XD.

Anyway, lessons have started and i must say the style really DOES NOT suit me at all. Haiz. Only like first week of lecture and theres LOADS of tutorial homework. Sian diao. I think i'll probably be going to tjc if i can for JAE.

Oh one more thing, my primary school classmate is in my CG. Lol. So coincidental sia. XD.

As most of you should already have known, i'm in badminton. Lol. I just realised i'm in the recre team which is like really good already. Can't even imagine what the team players are like. Lol.

I don't really know what to post about so sorry for the short post.

P.S: We're holding a 4B outing on one of this few days. So go check your email.

Fuck it

2007-12-21T04:26:00.000-08:00

Fuck it. Fuck it. Fuck Fuck.

Heroes

2007-12-12T07:16:00.000-08:00

Woots. I'm in love with heroes. It rocks. Lol. Anyway, the plot is seriously cool. Particularly with the painter Isaac Mendez's powers. Well, he's supposed to paint the future. It's so complicated i can't describe it. XD.

Either way, wk's still overseas, probably gorging himself with Japanese food. That means we guys can't meet up until next week. My's got work on the weekdays, so it's the weekends, and yien would probably have some church stuff on on weekends. Great.

Seriously guys, just for your imformation, the five of us are all going different colleges. Yi'en making his way to VJ, yap going all the way to ACJ, my and wk both headed to MJ, which leaves me, stuck in TJ. So, i just hope that you guys can try and dig some time out of your "busy schedules" and catch a movie together or something.

So, well, anyone wanna go catch Golden Compass next week? And MY, could you take a leave for like one day or something? I prefer a weekday. XD.

Alright. If you guys read this post, please tag your replies or sms me. Lol... Alright then, CYA!

Hiro Nakamura. My name is Peter Petrelli, I have a message for you. XD. Heroes ROCKS!

Maple

2007-11-29T16:35:00.000-08:00

I'm bored. I'm downloading maple. Lol.

Anyway, Maple is 800mb. Thats 0.8gb if you don't realise. Like, holy shit. XD.

Oh well, since i've got nothing much to do, i figured i might as well post the pictures that i have successfully leeched.

Beauty....and the Beast. XD.
The Stalker and the Stalked.
ZiHeng and Me.
My beloved 2A!
Wootz, 4B'07!
Amirul & Me.
Like holy shit, thats baoxian. Lol.
"THE Gang" XD.
Well, there you go. Off to play Warcraft3 with WK. Jan-nah~~.

Blah Blah Blah

2007-11-23T02:29:00.000-08:00

Was planning to leech grad nite pictures from other people but turned out i couldn't find any. Damn. Anyway, sorry for the late post, i've got nothing much to post about lately. Lol.

Anyhow, i just came back from 2A chalet this morning. Tired like what like that. Nice analogy, i know. XD. We met at like 12.30pm can. Then we were fooling around at the reception counter at Costa Sands Resort at downtown east because we had to wait for Istilah to come. Yi'en was playing Brain Age on WK's DS, and ta-da, his brain is 67 years old! LOL. Ok back to the topic, so we were sitting on the ground playing some retarded choose-a-name-and-call-it-out card game. Oh, and yes, i DID NOT bring my PSP to the chalet. Hehe.

After checking in we went to play arcade. Come on man, face it, basketball just rocks. Lol. The girls got bored after a while and we ended up returning to the chalet and played Wii, mahjong, poker cards, and YuSheng's laptop. Bah, there's seriously nothing much to post about the chalet. Oh, and i lost my voice after the chalet. Great, isn't it? Bleh.

Oh wells, i guess its back to good old boring life again. Haiz. I'm practically rotting at home everyday can. I need pictures people.!! Ok i'm off to bug everyone on MSN to send me grad nite pictures. Lol.

'O' Levels?

2007-11-02T05:53:00.000-07:00

Hi again. I didn't really feel like blogging, but seeing how dead my blog was, i decided to give it a go. Heh.

Anyway, the previous papers were all rather ok, not easy, but do-able. So, let's not talk about it. =)

I must have been infected with the "SongYang-virus" or something like that, i'm like listening to ancient west life songs. XD. But hey, they're nice okay.

I'd two dreams some time ago. One being the two of you reconciling and the other being my computer working again. The former may just have a chance of coming true, but well, the latter, let's just say the sleeping beauty won't be waking up again. =)

I just wanted to say this to the people who may have screwed up for their major exams.
The papers are over, there's no point fretting over it, the only thing you can do now is to strive harder for the remaining papers and get your mind off the past. Not to say the results doesn't matter, but what really matters is that at the end of the day you can turn back and tell yourself that you have given it your best shot. That, i believe, is what really matters.

Guess I'll be ending here, since i don't have anything much to blog about.

Washing My Hands Of It

2007-10-19T06:54:00.000-07:00

Since you guys don't even care anymore, i don't see the reason why i should. As from today onwards, i'm not gonna give a hoot about anything. You want to throw a friendship down the drain like that, go ahead, i don't want to care anymore.

Sadness+Irritation Makes WeiXuan A Dull Boy

2007-10-13T06:20:00.000-07:00

Two things have been bugging my mind lately. First: the discord between two friends of mine. Second: my brother. I've mentioned the latter one too many times on my blog, and i really don't know what to think anymore. So well, let's just talk about the former.

I'd wanted to do this one-to-one, but didn't get a single chance, so i guess i'll have to do it here.

I don't want to mention who's at fault or the otherwise, because its rather pointless to do this at this point of time. Like you said, it's 9 days to O's, 32 days to grad night. Thats about 1 more day then a month. And that's exactly the amount of time you've got to treasure all the friendships you've been building up these four years. By saying that i mean the both of you.

I have to agree that "Wounds heal with time, but scars remain." But haven't you heard of scar removal creams and even operations? Nothing's impossible when you try.

That story on your blog, i wouldn't disagree with it. But you haven't heard the end of the story. Like SY said, the holes could be filled with saw dust so that it looked as good as new. But even though it's not perfect, at the very least you tried, and i believe that's what matters. Isn't it?

You know what NY? Sometimes i really hate you, not because you're smarter than me, nor has it got to do with your mood swings and all. It's because you keep things to yourself, bottling everything up. We're friends for a reason. You think it's really noble and cool to keep stuff to yourself and act like kurosaki ichigo? Sorry man, you thought wrongly. For a simple reason, it's not.

It worries me, and i believe everyone else too. By that i mean MichAw, SJ, SY, and even WK and YS. To be frank, i'm lost, even to the extent of being desperate. So, i'm gonna ask this one more time, and never again, are the two of you really going to stay this way forever? With only 32 days left together? Go think about what i said, the two of you.

Nostalgic, isn't it?

Pictures.

2007-09-24T07:27:00.000-07:00

Hey people. I'm back again. Anyway, the two various HODs and our dearest principal gave us a motivational(?) speech each today. MT's speech was especially humorous. And well, yi'en was giving me his usual "bullshit" throughout the whole two hours. I must say his english really have improved. (Not very sure about his spelling though XD)

The papers were ok but i was kind of disappointed with my geog and chem marks. But nevertheless, "MOVE ON", heehee. Well then, enjoy the pictures below.

A few tries at abstract. Teehee.
Aw hor SongYang.
This was racial harmony i think. (From left to right: Yen sin, Nicholas Chew, Don't know who, Vanessa Poh(I think))

Woo yeah. My all-time favourite super hero. XD.

Childhood memories people. Think i did this when i was around primary 6 or something. (Cardboard pieces with pokemon drawn on them)
Look what exam stress does to people. XD.
Woohoo, happy 21st birthday to my eldest cousin, and a happy 73rd birthday to my good ol' grandpa.

Well then. Thats the end of it. I'll try to update as much as possible. Oh anyway, Chang Sheng and Kai Liang called the police and told them that their pikachu had escaped from its pokeball. LOL. Still think we're not stressed? XD.

I forgot about drawing tyki today. Oops. Guess I'll do it tomorrow.

Weird Dream

2007-09-17T08:23:00.001-07:00

BOOYA! Feel so hyper now. Just woke up from 4 hours of sleeping. Heehee.

Anyway, i had a uber weird dream last weekend. It was something about me, weekang, mengyee, yien, nicholas, and my mum in Thailand. LOL. I don't really remember it very clearly, but i think there was something about jumping around, volleyball and ear piercing or something like that. Like, how weird can it be.

That's not all. In the dream, i was bitten by an ant. I know i felt the pain, but guess what? I didn't wake up! WTH!? Ok i know i know. But when i was in the dream i was like telling myself, "Ain't i supposed to be waking up now?" or something like that. It was damn weird ok.

Oh and one more thing. Somehow or the other, i've been feeling VERY emotional lately, for no good reason. Even i find it weird myself. For example, i've been playing FFVIII on my computer, and you know they've got those "touching touching" scenes. So ya, when i was looking at it, i had this weird feeling inside, like something warm or something. UBER CORNY LA. XD.

Bah heck, I'm probably going crazy due to too much of studying. No big deal really, since i'm not the only one. Heehee.

What's Wrong Guys.

2007-09-05T08:18:00.000-07:00

I don't want to start bitching about "the whole world hates me" thingy, but guys, no matter how nice to suan i am, i'm still a human, and any human has pride.

If i ever did anything to offend you, come tell me straight in the face, i'll even let you take any actions you want against me. You don't just come along and start suan-ing me like nobody's business. If you want to joke, fine, go ahead, even to the extent of suan-ing me, but, know your limits people. Know your limits.

Just because yi'en says it doesn't mean that i'm really nice to suan. I may not show it, but for your information, i am affected. You come and interrupt a conversation that doesn't even involve you and shout shut up at me? Try doing that again dude, and you'd be glad i wasn't the one holding that bottle.

I'm fine with jokes, i really am. But you don't just come along and deem me noob every hour or something. Because basically, it's not funny. You daresay you never made a mistake before?

I hope you guys get my point. And for your information, the above examples aren't targeted at only one particular person, you know who you are people. Know your limits.

The Ugly Truth

2007-08-28T02:58:00.000-07:00

I just read amirul's post and got the reality smacked onto my face, the reality that i've been trying to avoid ever since god-knows-when.

Its two days to prelim, less than two months to 'O's and grad night, which i believe would be the last day we can get together as a school, as a class, as friends. It's ridiculous, too ridiculous, they put us together for four years in which we build our friendships, ever so strong, only to break us apart at the very end.

Was lying on my bed yesterday when images of all the times we had flashed through my mind, and i'm serious about it. Images of the few of us laughing at retarded jokes that aren't even funny, images of us joking about each other's shortcomings, and images of us teasing each other about scandals.

After the 'O's, yi'en will probably be making his way to VJC, and weekang says he doesn't want to get into a good JC, which i understand why. I may never be able to meet the bulk of you anymore, you guys from 4B, 2A. Ronald, Cliff, Amirul, Sophia, Michelle, Jev, Jo, Mavis, JiaJun, Bernard, and much much more whom i won't be able to finish listing.

Nevertheless, all the best for the coming prelims and the following 'O's. Anyway, just to let you all know, i never once doubted or regretted having you all as a friend.

Love you, people.

Amazing

2007-08-16T05:39:00.000-07:00

Hey people, been running low on creative juices lately, so i haven't really been posting much. To be exact, i haven't been posting for about one month now, not that anyone really reads my blog. XD.

Anyway, school's been rather intense recently. We're literally having tests every single day. Tuesday was English oral, Wednesday english summary, E.Maths paper two today, and there's Geography make up test tomorrow. Fabulous isn't it? Not that i'm really affected by it though. Hehe.

For all you anime downloaders out there, heres a sound advice: Stop Downloading Anime. No joke, some clowns got together and made a company which licensed every single Japanese anime and banned people from downloading it. Yea i know, Bloody hell.

According to our trusted wikipedia, they're going about catching anime downloaders large scale by checking ip or something like that, and guess what's the most "amazing"? They've issued a lawyer letter to a 9-year-old kid who probably doesn't even know what he's doing. Aren't they just cute? Ok you get my point, I shouldn't elaborate much.

Well i wouldn't think you guys need another reminder about how close the prelims are. But still, that's a fact and if you're still thinking about playing and fooling around and not even spending some time on revising and stuff, you think wrong.

Here's the fact, we've got less than 2 weeks to the prelims and that comes to about 14 days. Which would be divided into 8 subjects, and for some others, 7. That leaves less than 2 days for each subject. And that's including the time taken for sleep, school and stuff. Well i guess you get my point.

Think i'm gonna stop here, I'm only halfway through burying myself in the geog notes and I've got less than 2 hours left to finish it. Good luck guys.

Yet another day.

2007-07-25T04:06:00.000-07:00

Hi again peepz. I know its kind of boring to start every post like that, but well, just bear with it till i manage to find another way of doing it. XD.

Anyway, it's been rather stressful in school lately. But like MT said it, we've got to learn to embrace the stress and see it as a challenge, whatever that means. But well, not like i'm in any position to talk about stress.

You know i really wonder how amirul is able to update his blog everyday. I mean, how the hell does he manage to post everyday. It's only the second day and i'm running out of stuff to talk about. Anyway, who cares. XD.

Heck, i'm off to finish my history SBQ. So CYA!

STRESS

2007-07-24T06:16:00.000-07:00

Hey people. Been counting the days till prelims. And guess what? WALAH! We only have a total of 48 days before the prelims start. Which converts into 1152 hours, 1/3 of which is used to sleep, eat and bathe, another 1/3 in school, which leaves us with 384 hours. That amount of time for 8 subjects, and for some even 9. Which leaves us with an approximate 48 hours for each subject. Ok i won't stress you people even more by calculating the amount of time left for each topic. XD.

Either way. We've been through so much, 4 years of education to be precise, and i seriously don't think anyone wants to waste these four years by screwing up their 'O' level. So people, if you're still thinking of studying one week or two before the prelims, think again.

Ok whatever, i'm not gonna start another pep talk here, since MY has been giving us that almost every lesson. Well, i've got a very bad feeling about the previous test. If only she would just tell me how i was doing, because i seriously don't know, and being kept in suspense doesn't help at all.

Good luck people. I'm off to catch some sleep for the night.

23/30! Wootz!

2007-07-22T00:49:00.000-07:00

"No! Get away from me!" I screamed at the top of my voice, retreating quickly as the burly figure confronted me, a dagger clutched in his hands.

I tripped over my own foot and fell backwards onto the concrete wall of the alley. The assaulter towered above me, the silver blade shining dimly from the reflection of the street lights. I tried my best to get a glance of his face, but all that could be seen was a blur image. Without warning, he plunged the icy cold blade into me, rendering me unconscious...

"No!" I sat up in my bed, for a moment wondering whether or not I was alive. Cold sweat trickled down my temples and cheeks. It didn't take long for me to realise it was just a nightmare, one which has haunted me over the past few weeks. I wiped the sweat off my forehead and reached for the clock. It was still early morning, I could still get some sleep, but the fear of having the same nightmare again made me change my decision.

Still shivering from the impact of the nightmare, I got out of bed listlessly and shuffled to the kitchen. I made myself a cup of hot coffee and settled down on the dining table. I started browsing through the newspaper from the day before and one of the articles caught my attention. It was about a serial killer who had broken out of jail and is currently back on his "hobby". Only three weeks had passed and already three citizens had been killed. I stared hard at the familiar face of the criminal, trying to figure out who he was. After several guesses, I gave up and tried to relax myself on the couch, before leaving for work.

It was 6.30 pm, and I was on my way home alone. Usually i would have taken the long route home, but that day, i decided to take a short cut, as i wanted to reach home in time for the season finale of my favourite show. I strolled into the alley, for a split-second wondering if I had been here before, as the scene was somehow familiar. An eerie silence engulfed the alley, as every step i took told me that something was wrong.

I hurried on, sensing that something was terribly wrong. Suddenly, I came to a halt as i finally realised what this place was. It was the alley in my dream! I took a good look at my surroundings, not wanting to believe that I was right. Horrors to horrors, it was true, the abandoned trolley, the rotten food, the garbage bags, they were all in the same position as they were in my dream. Fear coursed through my every vein as my heart seemed to stop beating.

Just then, I felt an icy object at my neck. My heart literally stopped.

"Do not move, or else...." a monotonous voice whispered into my ears. With the other hand, he pushed me towards the concrete wall, turning me around to face him, the blade still sticking on my neck. He punched me straight in my stomach, and I let out a loud moan and collapsed in pain.

The grey figure towered above me, as I focused my blurred vision on his face. It took me no more than a split-second to realise who he was: the serial killer. The features on his face were unmistakable. A scar that trailed down his left cheek, and a bulbous nose that seemed to be twice the size of an average person's. His eye were filled with insane ecstasy and his mouth turned into a sinister grin.

I tried to get a grip of myself and thought about what happened next in my dream. If this was identical with my dreams, then the next thing he would do is....

Again, without warning, he plunged the dagger towards me, but this time, I was more than prepared. The fear in me seemed to be overwhelmed by the desire to survive. I ducked to my left, and with both my limbs grabbed onto the assaulter's arm. With every ounce of energy left in me i pulled his arm down, bringing his head in contact with the concrete wall.

With a loud thud, he fell hard onto the ground beside me, unconscious. I took this chance to contact the police who arrived shortly after. The criminal was brought back to the station and I was escorted back home, safe and sound, all thanks to those dreams i had.

Racial Harmony!

2007-07-20T04:15:00.000-07:00

First and foremost, wishing everyone a happy racial harmony day!

There's pretty much nothing I've got to post really. But still, in an attempt to revive the blog, i shall make use of my bullshit-ting plus blabbering skills to make a hell of a long post. XD.

Been watching animes like D.Gray Man, Bleach and Naruto. All three are nice. But the bleach fillers just S**K big time.

Either way. Watching these animes and reading books like Animorphs made me start to wonder whether or not I'd be able to do the same things, under the same circumstances. Like Spider man says, "With great power, comes great responsibilities."

I mean, if one day you wake up to find yourself walking on walls and turning into animals, how would you react? I would guess most of you would say, "Cool" or "No big deal", or something along that line.

But you see, it's not as easy as it seems. It's not just killing enemies and saving the earth. You live in fear everyday, not because you're afraid of dying to enemies, but because you're afraid of endangering people close to you, your family, friends. I mean, stuff like this sticks with you.

And when things get up close and personal, it'll be up to you to decide whether you save your loved ones or save the earth. To be honest, i wouldn't have been able to do it, i would have chose my loved ones, and the earth could go on and save itself. Many people would have did the same thing, Peter Parker did that too, at least for a while. If you ask me, i'd reckon NY would be able to do it, not me. I mean, it's not really something to be praised about, but well, you get my point.

But i guess it all boils down to the same old "beat the baddies and save the world" slogan. Right from marvel superheroes like J.L.A and Spider man, to anime characters like Kurosaki Ichigo, Naruto, and Allen Walker.

Heroes, huh?

*edited the post a little to prevent any offense*

Short one here.

2007-07-08T06:24:00.000-07:00

I wanted to post something, but i don't know what. XD. Anyway, i won't be posting any more personal stuff here. Which means NO MORE EMO. Aw, how sad can that be weekang.

Either way, i just figured there was something i wanted to say to this particular someone. I would think you know who you are after reading this post. I don't know what happened to you that made you so stressed, or even tense.

Remember that day, during MT period, you really scared me there. Not the feeling you get when some big guy threatens to beat you up, its those you get when you realise that something is terribly wrong.

Maybe something happened. Maybe not. But you know what, bottling things up doesn't help a teeny bit. And neither does it make you seem strong and cool you know. Who doesn't have troubles? I'm pretty sure everyone has them.

But guess what, violence doesn't help at all, needless to say solve. You're just avoiding it, but at the end of the day the problem still stands there. Strong and steady.

Why not let it out? I'm pretty damn sure you'll feel much better. Trust me. It need not be me, just let it out. Tell someone, or even post it on your blog. It doesn't matter, no one's gonna laugh at you. Everyone has times when they're tired, weak, helpless. It's how you deal with it man.

Rock on, macho-boy.

Animorphs!

2007-07-03T07:15:00.000-07:00

Hey guys. I'm back, and yea, i'm feeling much better than i was. I wonder whether it was the stopping of the teasing or amirul's hug. Either way, i'm felling better. Thanks guys.

Anyhow, i'm still reading my Animorphs books and i'm running of out them. Damn. I'm so desperate i'm thinking of borrowing them from the library. XD. Ok, maybe i will, tomorrow most probably. Teehee. Man i'm addicted already.

Yes i know, animorphs are like ancient. But who cares? It's nice and that's all i care about. I always thought i knew animals well until i started reading Animorphs. If you're not particularly interested in animals, the next few paragraphs are going to bore you to death. Be prepared. XD.

Frankly, i used to love animals a lot, and maybe still quite a little now. So here's what i learnt from reading animorphs. Maybe i'll put it in notes form. Ok maybe not.

An elephant's trunk is so subtle it can pick up an egg without cracking it or pick up an empty log and throw it a few thousands miles away.

A tiger's roar can make an adult pee in his pants. No joke. I'm not talking about those 'throat-clearing' sounds you hear in the zoo, i'm talking about those ROARs that can shatter glass. And obviously NOT what yi'en does.

Shoots, i can't remember anymore. But i guess the previous two paragraphs were enough to bore you to death. Teehee. I still love gorillas though.

Ok just to conclude i just published a whole shit load of crap about animals. XD. Think i'm going a bit psycho. See lar wee kang.

And to J: Heard you broke down recently. Haven't been talking to you much. Anyway, don't give yourself too much stress dude. Believe you can do it and you will be able to do it. Jia You!

Butterflies

2007-06-22T07:13:00.000-07:00

Hey all. Been reading my ancient Animorphs books to make myself sleep, and somehow, it's kinda working. Lol. Though i need to finish the whole book before i fall asleep. =p.

The book's about this bunch of kids that were given an ability to change into animals by some aliens to well, as corny as it sounds, save the planet. But hey, after all it's science fiction.

Anyway, i found this sentence in one of the books quite interesting, and well, true. I think i've said it before. "A butterfly beating its wings in China, could bring about a tornado in America." It's fascinating isn't it? How everything on Earth works.

See, everything is linked together. What you do today, may be caused by something that happened before, and will cause something to happen later. What you are now, is because of everything that happened earlier, and will affect what happens in the future.

It's like, even little everyday things that you do will change your future. And well, like the book says, butterflies don't know when to beat its wings, but it just beats its wings the best way it can and hope that everything just works out.

Well, i just figured it was about time i did something about sitting in front of the comp everyday and rotting. I know i know, i've said this one too many times, and i've never did anything about it. But i'm trying, i really am.

Random-ness.

Emo or Abstract? XD.

School's reopening on monday. Oh goody.

Been A While

2007-06-16T07:14:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, been a while since my last post.

Went to Yi Hee's chalet on wednesday right after the physics course. Stayed overnight. I'm in love with pool already.
Teehee.

The chalet was fun overall. YapSeng and TK forgot they had physics course the next day. Smart guys. Woke up at like 5 and rushed home to change.

Had a 'pep' talk with dad today. Actually, he was the one talking most of the time. XD. Well, while he was speaking and telling me the usual stuff, i realised something. My dad had came a long long way. He's not young anymore, perhaps around 50.

You know what, no matter how many times dad repeats the same thing over and over again, he never fails to make me feel a tinge of warmth deep in my heart. No joke. I mean, yea, he may be kind of irritating at times, but hey, he'd always been there. And i'm pretty sure all that nagging is for our own good. Man that sounded corny. XD.

Blah blah. I know i need to start studying, but everytime i take out my books i'll be like er.... Ok i'll try to concentrate more and play less computer games, but i can't promise though. I'll try my best at least.

On a lighter note, i saw a rainbow yesterday. Took a picture of it. Here it is.

Hardly see one of those nowadays. Well well.

A Big Burden To Bear

2007-06-09T09:18:00.000-07:00

Hey guys. Its been a while. I'm troubled by too much stuff lately thus i decided to restart a blog. Yea i know this is retarded. WeeKang and Yien are gonna start laughing at me. But heck, i don't give a shit. Anyway, i won't be posting regularly.

You know what guys? I've been a bloody failure as an elder brother. Really, i look at my brother and realise how much a failure i am. I'm serious, don't even think about consoling me, because nothing's gonna work.

There was this period of time i tried telling myself repeatedly that it was just growing up, you know, puberty and all. But reality proved otherwise. Because the older he grew, the worse he becomes. I really don't know. My parents keep telling me that my brother learns how to behave like me, and he looks at me as a model to learn from. I asked my mum yesterday whether or not i behaved like that when i was his age, and as expected, the answer was no, not that i'm boasting or anything.

But fact is, i haven't done my role as a big brother. I haven't been able to teach him the right morals, bring him up as a good person. I've brought him up as a liar, a self-centered person. A person who only knows how to play computer games and get involved with friends that don't want to study. A person who thinks that he's the most powerful guy in the world.

Months ago, i gave up on him. Or at least that was what i wanted to do. I stopped talking to him, stopped interfering him from doing the stuffs he wanted to do. I didn't want to care anymore, because each time i did, my head would end up heavy and painful. He's primary six now, old enough to decide whether or not he wants to continue this way. But recently, my parents keep talking to me about him, and my sister keeps saying she hates me just because of it. I'm lost, seriously lost.

To be frank, i feel like crying now, and many a times i've had the same feeling, when i lie down on my bed and think about him. I've said this before, and i'm gonna say it again, if there was someone in this world who could make me drop my tears, it would be my brother. Call me a sissy, a crybaby. Go ahead. Not that i care.

I really don't know what to do. And to my sister, i can only say, sorry. Really sorry. Please understand.

One more thing, if you're here to laugh at me or my post, please screw off.